Thursday, February 12, 2015

NIGHT CHANGES

Well, I'm not a fan of One Direction though but I do like one of their songs which I used it as my post's tittle. I should have put another tittle but I think this one's fine.

I am kind of disappointed because I didn't get to do/accomplish my previous post's plan which is going home. The plan changes so I'll be here for another 2 months something. I am sad but I think this sadness will somehow goes away as time pass by. I will just need to tells positive things to myself because I made this decision so I should face it and learn something through this short journey. Can I survive though? We'll see.

It is still not safe to say that I am already familiar or used to this new surrounding but I can say that it's slowly turning into a comfortable place that I don't really find it awkward anymore. Not completely but at least it's in the progress. Thank god I have a super kind-hearted, friendly and helpful roommate. I would still be crying everyday if it's not because of her. She's my everything here.

It's always a good feeling when you found that one friend whom you can share everything in a new place. It makes you feel that you are never alone in going through a new journey. I am indeed grateful.


Saturday, February 7, 2015

HELLO!

I'm back on my blog again but as you can see it's a new blog. I've deleted the previous one. Why? Because I wanted something new and fresh. I did the same thing with my Instagram's account too. So, kind of like starting a new whole thing again. But then it feels good though.

I am away from home for almost a week right now. I will only needs to survive another one week and I can go home. Actually, the first planning is that I'll be away from home for few months but it happens that there's some missed communications and the conclusion is that I can go home after two weeks time. Which is a YEAY for me. To be honest, I really can't stand staying away from home. I missed everyone. There goes the saying 'Home is where the heart is'. Yep, it's undeniable. Yes, I know that I will need to leave home someday, I will do it but just not now. I feel like suffocating leaving home. It's like I've been stabbed in my throat by using a knife and I can't talk anything just tears flowing. Sounds ridiculous but that is what I'm feeling. I really can't wait to go home.

I kind of like feel so empty and alone here. It's not that they are not nice but it's just that I feel so.. alone and awkward. I guess I'm still not used to it. I was a little bit of surprised when I've been asked a question like this last night, "What type of person are you? I mean do you prefer to be alone in any situations or do you like a merrier surroundings? Or more like mingle with people." But of course the question is in Chinese since everyone here is Chinese. Well, I told her that I can do both. I mean I'm not really that kind of a quiet person. I can be loud too. I really loves to laugh but it depends on the situation and also depends with the people I hangs out with. I can't simply be crazy as what I am on the inside if I am not used to my surroundings. So basically people will think that I rather be alone than mingle around. Well, I have my own reasons though. I guess certain people will have this kind of feelings too when it comes to new surroundings which you need to adapt yourself into it.

But what I am really happy about is that I get to improved my Chinese HEHE. I sucks at Chinese since I don't have anyone to speak it with me back in hometown. But still, I haven't completely forgotten about it though.

I think that's all for now. Gewdbai :D